ranting over friends who can't be trusted

How would you feel when you made plans with a friend that you are going out and then he will not show up?

but meh. whatever. I am used to him ignoring me.

I had fun with hubby anyway. That would be an entirely different post.

We Are Survivors

Filipinos are survivors.

In less than a month, a 7.2 magnitude earthquake shook Bohol and Cebu. And then heavy rains with a "buhawi" or a waterspout. And recently, a supertyphoon. One of the strongest/biggest this year. 

I hope the damage and the casualties are not that much. 

My people will survive.

Friendship Over?

Hmm, it was like that Imelda Papin song, "Isang Linggong Pag-ibig".

Ten Days of Friendship.

When classes resumed, we barely talked. Barely saw each other in the eyes. There was two times we sat beside each other. That's it.

I'm probably being ignored. Coz I am weird. 

Let's focus on the Ninja. Hahahaha.

Sentiments and Friendships

I am a very possessive friend. Which is weird for me coz I am not really possessive over material things.

Why do I get attach to people? They all just move on and move away. I'll just end up hurting myself.

Do people really care?

quote

Do not fall in love with people like me
we will take you to
museums and parks
and monuments
and kiss you in every beautiful
place so that you can
never go back to them
without tasting us
like blood in your mouth.

~ Gabriel Gadfly

Blocked...?

After last nights convo, have I been blocked? Hahahaha!

u know

i love

love

LOVE

this jerk ass side of urs

but im telling u now

thank u very much

and this is my last official warning

if u continue

uh huh?

i may not be able to contain said vulgarness

ah

call it research etc lol

ok

*pats ur head*

(angry)

he said he'll block me. he said to consider myself warned .

That's funny. But thinking about it now, I don't know what he actually meant. So don't take it seriously. And if he indeed stops talking with me, that's good. He's bad for the health.  

Now, go back to assignments. 

Kindred spirits

I found another kindred spirit.

But it can be fatal.

Don't act on it.

Hungover

No, I didn't drink any alcohol.

 You know that feeling when you just finished reading a book, or watching a tv show marathon or anime series that just ended? Yup, that kind of hangover.

I was talking with a new friend last night for a couple of hours and I had fun. Made me miss my friends back home.

I tried sending a message to that person today and I couldn't. I feel restless. And I missed my massage appointment today which made me sad.

Hahaha I connected two problems. What I'm saying is that today didn't go so well. It was so-so. Just made me sad and restless.

Oh I just had a talk with my mother, they're OK. Thank goodness.

Anyways, I'll enjoy Norwegian Wood.

Time Management

I am drowning in assignments and lacking sleep and exercise in the process.

I need to learn how to manage my time. I just had a talk with a classmate, one of those utterly quiet guys in class, and I learned why he's not in class that often. He studies on his own and has taught himself a lot of things related to this course and still have time to finish his assignments on time. Amazing!

I got so many projects that have been waiting for years for me to finish or to actualize them. So sad.

Stop wasting time, Rai.

Self-destructive

Yesterday, I did something crazy. But I don't want to detail it here.

Nagpakaulaw lang ko.

Hubby is not getting over it, coz I hurt him. I tried hurting myself, but as usual, ended up hurting him more. And the more I see him hurt, the more I want to hurt myself. Kakapoy.

I'll seek a way to end this self-destructive behavior. I don't want us hurt anymore.

oh canada

I forgot to write about coming here to Canada. I'll write about that later.

Just wanna remind myself that I should not make a lot of complaints. I'll just write it down here. Sometimes, it's better not to write it at all so that I won't have to think about it and accidentally say it out loud. That will just cause trouble.

Like for today. *sigh*

I'll just shut up and write things down later.

2013, so far

I think this is my first entry for the new year.

I meant to write an entry last week, when I cut my hair, but I got lazy. Maybe I'll do that later.

Anyways, I felt down and disappointed because I've been looking forward to work for TPC. Now, that I am given a chance, thanks to Eva and Glen, Seb won't let me, for various reasons. First, he doesn't want me to go to Manila (coz it's dangerous). And second, I "might" get my visa, "soon." How "soon" is that? No idea.

This blasted waiting for the visa to arrived has ruined our lives, sort of. We've been waiting and waiting, even spent a couple of thousands on school so that I could finish before the visa arrives. It also has made looking for a job difficult, because I feel like I can't give my all coz I might leave anytime. Sheesh. So much for expectations.

And oh yeah, I just turned 29 last Friday. Not so much fan fare. The usual. We had shrimp for dinner, and mamon, and strawberries and ice cream on Saturday. Nothing really special.

I got so much to be worried, but I don't want to. And all this waiting is wrecking havoc on Seb's health. Poor hubby. I feel so distant from him sometimes, like I think I am not comforting him enough. Poor hubby.

Anyways, I hope to get my visa soon, like a month or two. In the meantime, I'm gonna spend my time wisely. Like wake up early and help my mother with chores. Practice drawing, practice A LOT. Take lots of photos. Help Pauline, Petria and Bordz with school. FINISH THE PHOTO PROJECTS. Damnit, that's been super duper delayed.

Yeah, gotta make use of myself instead of moping around.

That's it for now. Pictures of new hair will be for later.