Self-destructive

Yesterday, I did something crazy. But I don't want to detail it here.

Nagpakaulaw lang ko.

Hubby is not getting over it, coz I hurt him. I tried hurting myself, but as usual, ended up hurting him more. And the more I see him hurt, the more I want to hurt myself. Kakapoy.

I'll seek a way to end this self-destructive behavior. I don't want us hurt anymore.