crossroads

A few minutes ago, I cried.

I'm currently reading "Perks of Being a Wallflower" and some parts made me cry. Not the scene, but something in my life made me cry. But maybe because I was able to relate to the scene.

The scene is when Charlie's grandfather was talking about his experience as a 16-year-old and he went to look for work at a sawmill and the things he sacrificed for his family and the things that he wanted them to have like a college education.

It reminded me of my own father and his current dilemma and the things he has done for us.

Right now, he's worried about my mother's health and our land.

My mother was told by a doctor today that she needs to have an operation to remove her ovaries and uterus. Not sure why.

And our land now costs Php 12,500 per square meter, which means our land of 160+ sq. m. now costs Php 2 million plus.

My father, who had a bit of alcohol when he came home, told me about my mother. I raised my voice at him, telling him that we'll get a second opinion from my doctor, to verify if she needs a surgery. I felt bad raising my voice to him. He means well.

And also, I am the first person in my family to get a college/university degree. I am just happy and grateful to my parents and to Seb most especially.

I am just grateful of my parents. I prayed to God that He won't take my parents yet, that I need to repay them back for all the sacrifices and blessings they've given me. I am also thankful to God for all the things He gave me. Just grateful, very grateful.